Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Best Made Plans

There are many different tracks in life – career tracks, house tracks, children tracks, church tracks, etc. Each is like a plan that you are following. Sometimes in life you feel like you are on the right track, clicking along at an appropriate speed – maybe even picking up speed. Then suddenly you come to a change of direction. It may be a brick wall or it may be a sharp turn or it may be a complete turn around. Sometimes you hit the barrier or turn and crash with lots of pain and problems. Sometimes, the slow down to make the turn or change directions is painful – like slamming on the brakes, holding on to your children, grabbing your drink – so that things and people do not go flying. It seems that I may be coming to a change of direction, and I don’t like it, and I am struggling against it. I find that I am like our old roping horse, Oscar. I don’t turn very well – a bit stiff-necked. I want to kick someone. I want to run away. I want to sling my saddle and my rider and be free. I throw my head trying to get the reins. And yet, I know that safety is with my rider. The conductor of my train knows what he is doing. That doesn’t mean that I am not still fighting change. It means I need time to make the turn.

Update:
After my walk with Dawn this morning, I think I my "change of direction" will go smoother. I'm still on the right track. I may not have been expecting that curve, but I will make it without a crash.

8 comments:

Inquiries said...

More power to you Lou!

John said...

Toby doesn't want to move back to RR does he Lou :-) Just ragging you a little...

Bag Blog said...

John, Toby is never the one who wants to go to NM for any reason. Being the manager of a trash company opens your eyes to the real trash in peoples' lives.

Dawn said...

And yet, I know that safety is with my rider. The conductor of my train knows what he is doing. That doesn’t mean that I am not still fighting change. It means I need time to make the turn.

And He knows you! Such splendid, wonderful mercy and grace! Love you Lou :)

Buck said...

Hmmm. This is a cryptic post! Good luck with the change(s), Lou. Sounds like you have a good handle on it.

Junk Diva said...

Trust your rider, he is a gentle master. Change of direction seems to be harder the older we get. Peace to you from another Oscar.

Becky said...

Change is never easy, but sometimes we are able to look back and see that it was for the best. I hope that is the case with you. Whatever happens, know that you have dear friends and family that love you and support you.

The Friendly Neighborhood Piper said...

Last night i watched a late night movie cuz i wasn't sleeping. It was "Awakenings" with Robin Williams and Robert DeNiro. It reminded me of how beautifully exciting life is especially with those unexpected curves that we who really LIVE have the incredible option of making decisions. Be slow, be wise, be moldable. Remember, its the refiner's fire that purifies the gold, dross is not easily removed.