Sunday, January 04, 2009

Time with Jes

Most of you know how time consuming blogging can be. I struggle with spending too much time on the computer when I need to be spending more time with my art. I won’t say that the computer takes away my time with family, because if it is between family and computer, family is always better. Yet, I could spend more time taking care of my families’ needs – things like cleaning house, cooking meals, laundry, etc. Those are things that I never liked in the first place. I would use any excuse, not just the computer, to not do those things until I have to. Spending time with my family is one of the main reasons that I wanted to take this trip with Jesse, and I was pretty selfish about it. I didn’t mention our trip until the last minute (although the trip was pretty much last minute) because I did not want to take anyone with us. I didn’t want anyone to say, "Oh can I go too?" Our purpose in going to SA was not in going to see family and friends, but in doing something we don’t normally do and doing it together. My purpose was in just being with Jes – soaking up as much individual time with her as possible.

You would think that living in a tiny house that the three of us would get plenty of each other. And we do sometimes, but not so much for Toby and me. We rarely get tired of her - maybe it is an age thing. It is Jes that is always on the go. Jesse is a wheel – always turning, always rolling. We do have dinners together, mourning coffee times, TV shows that we both watch, and time just catching up, and other good quality times together. Yet, she constantly seems busy with work, church, and friends. Sometimes I miss her and just want personal time with her. That was my hope for this trip. I think I got my wish. We had a wonderful time. We didn’t have any "Oh my gosh" moments or "I can’t believe that happened" moments. No, it was all very peaceful and fun. Jesse and I both like people, we both like art, and we both like to explore. That is what we did.

Back to my point. Although I took my computer, I did not spend much time on it. Jesse took hers, too, but did not spend much time on hers either. I was not able to check my email on my laptop (more problems with Hughes.net). I wanted to post lots of photos while I had the chance(a good connection), but once again, I did not want to spend so much time looking, choosing, and moving pictures from one camera to the computer to the blog. Time consuming. I’m also behind on reading and commenting, but the time with Jesse and time exploring SA was good. Someday, a young man will come along and marry my daughter, and my time with Jesse will change. I want that for her, and I know that change will be for the good, but I want to absorb the time I have with her now. I want to make memories. "Do you remember that time in SA…" Yeah, I want those memories. And yes, I was selfish in not telling everyone that we were going.

I will tell more about the time in South Texas later. And I will try to post photos, too.

4 comments:

Becky said...

I'm glad you two had some quality time together. I hope you don't feel that you have to justify doing that. It's something that families in America have gotten away from, and families are weaker for it.

Bag Blog said...

Becky, maybe "justify" was not the word, but "explanation" for not stopping to see relatives and friends along the way.

Buck said...

I hear ya about spending time with Jess while you can. Both my DILs are either in that phase when a daughter leaves to begin their new life with their new man, or are near the end of it. I can tell it ain't easy. Life's just FULL o' changes, innit?

Bag Blog said...

Buck, changes can be interesting with the right outlook. I want to enjoy each change, but I also want to make the most of what I have now, too.